“To somebody I may have loved, We were never together in the way that couples are, though many…”

To somebody I may have loved, We were never together in the way that couples are, though many people thought we were. We were always "just pals" and "we're never even kissed." You were someone I enjoyed being around, a kind person who I always had fun with, yet for some reason it took me a year to realize that maybe I felt something else toward you. I was unsure for a while what this feeling was until I began to feel pangs of jealousy whenever I saw you with other girls. That's when it hit me and I wanted to be together. I never told you how I felt. I guess I was too nervous that you didn't feel the same, that if I tried to kiss you one night after you walked me home, you would turn away. Maybe a part of me was afraid of losing your friendship if things went south. I have to wonder what would have happened if I had told you. Would you have felt the same? Would we still be together, living in the same city? Or would we have dated for a few months and then gone our separate ways because we both wanted different things? I don't know if you ever felt the same way about me or if you ever even think about me, but I wanted you to know that you cross my mind all the time. Maybe one day we'll enter each other's lives again, maybe even in the way I’ve hoped. For now, I wish you the best and hope all is well. Somebody who may have loved you